Tomorrow is the last day of our month long trial!!  I can’t believe it’s already here.  Man … October is a quick month!

Saturday.  Slept in.  Glorious.  Enjoyed my coffee in my pjs.  Heaven.  Went to a baby shower in the afternoon, where I soaked up some girlie time with friends, ate fresh fruits and veggies and punch, and sadly did not eat the homemade amazing cake made in the shape of a baby popping out of a present.  Super cute.  It looked really tasty.  I could tell I was starting to focus in on the cake like “doesn’t that look good, I wonder what it tastes like” and “look how happy everyone looks eating that cake”, then the self pity started to flow “I can’t believe I won’t get to have any, what kind of freak am I?” and “I feel so left out”, but then I took myself under control and stopped thinking about cake all together.  Catastrophe averted.  Instead I positioned myself close to the mommy-to-be and watched her open her mountain of presents.  Ah, presents.  The part of me that’s still a little girl and the part of me that wants to be a mother were equally delighted by all the little baby items, the baby socks, the darling outfits with ruffles on the butt, etc. etc.

Saturday means baking, and doubly so as last weekend I was all at work and junk. Triply so as I needed to reward myself for not having baby shower cake.  I had two recipes selected, both from the new cooks books.  I decided to go with the cookies first.  Everything was going so well, until I had to cream together the butter/sugar mixture with soy milk.  The recipe said to beat until creamy.  In real life, the soy milk completely separated from the butter and refused to be integrated, no matter how much I beat it.  I was left staring at a disgusting heterogeneous mixture thinking “I’ve failed again”.  Why does vegan baking hate me?  My resolve hardened.  I wasn’t going to get upset.  I equally wasn’t going to give up.  I was going to win.  I carefully reviewed the directions, the measurements, and what precisely I had done, and landed on what I thought was the failing point.  I had added cold soy milk to the butter/sugar batter.  I thought cold milk may have caused the butter to reject being all creamy and happy.  So I dumped the nasty science experiment down the drain (not the easiest decision as I was tossing like 4 bucks worth of vegan ingredients) and decided to start over, this time with room temp milk.  Guess what?  I got the same results.  Lumpy butter ick floating around in murky brown liquid.  Fine.  If it was going to act this way, I wasn’t going to let that stop me, and I added the dry ingredients, then the dairy free semi-sweet chocolate chips, spooned it up on cookies sheets, sent them to their fate in the hot oven, and make myself cookies by force of will.  Granted once the dry (flour and oats and whatev) was added, the batter strongly resembled real cookie dough, so that helped.  Results?  Decent cookies!  Not very sweet, though, so no one was thrown into ecstasies by eating them, but at least I would feel no shame in feeding these to people.

Today’s Menu

  • Breakfast: coffee with soy milk
  • Lunch: one piece of toast with peanut butter and strawberry jam
  • Snack: baby shower food: veggies and little fruit kabobs and punch and bread rounds with tomato bruschetta on top
  • Snack: half an apple and an Izze
  • Dessert: cookie dough and one cookie
  • Dinner: homemade pizza
  • Drink: coffee with soy milk

 

Look pretty good, don't they? They remind me more of scones than chocolate oatmeal cookies though. The good thing is you can really eat um up as they don't feel bad for you.

 

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